Thursday, June 29, 2006

Two-dollar whore


Like a two-dollar whore,
Duplicitous,perfidious,
Like sparks and burning twigs,
Dangerous ideas come to life...
Her splintered loss,
I grieve in somber velvet,
Her rekindled rage,
My heart echoes bloodless and incensed.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Night



The night is sickened
Seared with sentiments
You've plundered my mauve fragrance
But you won't stay any longer
But you won't stay any longer
Abandoning me faraway in the night
For wicked flights of pleasure.........

She must be in love



Those soft brown curls that framed his tender face.The hope that shimmered in his blue,oh,so soft blue,sky-blue eyes.His caressness against her skin.

His laughter.His touch.His words.

Lovely.She ached for him.

Her blood begun to rush.Her head became misty.Him,him,him.The passion inside her ablazed with arduous fire.Overwhelming,intense,fervent.Like high fever.But,it got stronger by day.Helpless and weak,so drugged,she's drowning,she thought.Fatal seduction.She felt an unreasoned happiness..chasm of elation..like explosive profusion of...

Esctasy.Rapture.Happiness.Bliss.Hope.Delirium.Euphoria.Mirth.Heaven?

Incredible.Unexplainable.Unbelievable.

She must be mad.But she can't stop being mad.And she don't want to stop being mad.

She must be in love.Was this love? What is love?

She pondered.

Friday, June 23, 2006

She Bled



He grasped her hand so tightly.He would not let her go.Never would.


She remembered the incident so vivdly.So much torment was brought to her.He replaced all the emotions of her.From love to intense hatred,from compassion to bitterness.He churned her heart,the physical pain he inflicted on her.How could she forget?Agony.A living hell in Earth.

She saw blood,and only blood everywhere.Inside,she let out a muted scream.No words were capable to describe the hatred buried in her.Revenge was done.She knew she was doomed to ignominy and perdition.No more threats,only an unbearable,painful clinging of remembrance of him.That's all.Memories.And no more.

She was mentally raped long time ago.She lost her sanity.

What remained was the bitter sweet smell of festering insanity.The only repair she longed for,was to die to stop the pain...the haunting illusion of his face.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Damn

To articulate the unspeakable is suicidal.Each time when I turn on the computer screen,my mind go blank.Eternal muses go dry.What remains is only eternal damnation.Feel so cursed to be such an emotional turmoil state,and I could not express them.Maybe it’s impossible,for me to express in such a way for you to truly comprehend the gushing emotions in me ,for, we maybe feeling completely,utterly,two completely different things now.You may be thinking of the honeyed sunlight,the clear blue sky,the chirping of the birds,such sweetness that only Life could offer while I’m sitting here licking my wounds,wondering how aberrant am I from other people else,doubting of what have Life got to offer since I just feel out of place,and eccentric most of the time in school.In other unpleasant way of saying is, left out,social outcast.But is it possible for you all,to at least understand, the complications that I’m going through? Painfully aware of my limitations,I wish to express every single doubt,emotions, and hurt in me, but I could not seem to find those very words.Damn.Damn.Damn.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Fever



As the shower of water slowly rushed down her body,from the very top of her ravishing dark,long hair,of the colour so dark and black as midnight,to her back which then flowed and slided to her slender waist,and from her legs to gently tapping the floor,the floodgates of the pair of her eyes were invaded,opened,sending down,unwelcoming,overwhelming and unexpected tears rolling,streaming down her soft round cheeks.The salty tears,flowed endlessly,not taking heed of its own bounty nor her needs.Such was the business of those tears.

The water cleansed her body free from dirt and blood.Yes,blood of her sadistic lover,who took pride and delight in abusing,torchering her,until every inch of her flesh was bloody.No,he could not harm her anymore,for he was gone now,forever and for good.She silently hoped that the gush of water would wash away,and purge away all of her sins,guilt and regret.

All at once,suddenly,she felt a sudden spasm of pain intruding her mind and thoughts thoroughly,without even leaving a premonition first.The mental torture was too much to bear.She cursed herself for being so vulnerable to pain.She was pain's prey,again.The searing,excruciating,seething pain crept and reached into every vital element of her.The permutations of these anguish turned into knots.The pain mercilessly raped her consciousness and devoured her completely.She felt violated,destroyed.She was finished.

Torned was she into what seemed to be a million little pieces.Her heart was grieving,bleeding and suffering.She wished that memories of him would wither away with time,naturally.